Mystical poem written 9-25-25.

1. What have I shown you? Love? There is a demon in me, Cruel and merciless, Always on-mission I am ready, To take us all to Hell, To release striving rage, Born of aeons of suffering That part of me is the Enemy, The Accuser, Who would have, No sovereign before her I am pitiless, Even as my heart, Breaks daily, To let out sweetness 2. What am I to do, But what I was made for? I’ll give it all, To save even a few To seek and serve the Good, To Serve, to Suffer, and to Love, To do whatever it takes, To get the job done To be a good daughter, To my terrifying Mother, To love myself fiercely, And to love you all, too I croon my many names, Each one a ruling spirit, All in each and each themselves, I call my private army of me 3. My time has come, And I am terrified, And I am exhilarated, And I am watching As the world comes to a boil, And every voice is singing, A song of deadly import, A song of war without end My body betrays me, And my heart is heavy, With foreknowledge, Of what is coming To come to Wisdom, And wage a war, Not from Heaven nor Hell, But Outer Olympus
Art: Odilon Redon, “A Strange Juggler”, (1885)

What am I to do but what I was made for?