Terrify Me

Mystical poem written 10-7-24.

1.
“Know Me”, You said,
“And be free of all fear”,
But that is not the pact,
Between us, oh Beloved

You made clear to me,
That the path of Light,
And Life, and Love,
And even blessed Liberty

Is a holy terror,
Constant self-conquest,
Reaching out in love,
When all I want is to hide

All of those little moments,
Spent wondering why,
Trying to have faith,
When I can’t hear You

2.
Mighty and moving,
I find You everywhere,
Messages written,
Under every surface

But, Blessed One,
You terrify me,
As I test the world,
For patterns and meaning

A daring witch,
Fifty thousand fathoms,
Out at sea,
Without a life raft

Steadily insisting,
On giving away my heart,
But always horrified,
That I might lose my mind

3.
Bless me, oh Divine One,
Hear my prayers,
Grant me love,
For myself and others

Strengthen my heart,
So I might be loving,
Even in my deepest,
And furthest extremes

Grant me wisdom,
So that I might set,
Boundaries,
And hold the line

And most of all,
Nurture me, Beloved,
In my Understanding,
So that I might do the Work